Hello noble blog readers. Let me make one thing clear: I don't fit in. I just don't, especially not in Provo, UT. Usually I'm wearing leather pants/leggings and a flannel shirt/dress, so its more like standing out, rather than fitting in. Standing out is a very different beast at BYU than in San Diego, I've discovered. It's not really appreciated as much.
I'm officially in my second week here and I've only offended a handful of people (much better than expected!). I don't realize how offensive I am until I'm standing in a group, waiting for my marriage prep class to start, and I make a joke about holocaust movies not having blooper reels. IT'S AWFUL, I KNOW, I KNOW. I can't believe I said it either. I can't control these things that fly out of my mouth.
Taking a close second behind my generally-offensive-yet-hilarious-comments-on-pop-culture-and-genocide as Things That Make People Not Like Me, is my music snobbery. I really DO try to stifle the pretentious sniggering that erupts when the kid giving me a ride home asks me if I've heard the new Matchbox 20, which totally leaked last week and my sweet bro roommate gave it to me after I returned his torn up khaki pants that I borrowed to go 80's dancing last night.
I have no one I can talk to about music here. I've worn a Violent Femmes, Velvet Underground, and Blood Brothers t-shirt in the past ten days alone, and ZERO comments. Where can I find my snobby musical mates? I think I left them all in California.
Of course, I came to school here two years ago so I have a few people who I can chat it up musically with, but those people are kinda nuts. They haven't changed as much in the past two years as I have. My friend Tanner was the only kid I would really sit and talk about music with for extended periods of time, and he is on a mish. So is Alex, another critic/snob/friend. What can you do, right?
#3 on the list of Things That Make People Not Like Me- they knew me last time I lived here. I cringe and start sweating when someone asks, "Is your name brooke?" or "did you live in Chipman two years ago?" or "Didn't you slap me in the mouth once?" It is really hard to explain that not only have I really changed alot in the past two years, but I don't remember a whole lot of my brief stay here. I can't tell you how much I wish I could remember some of the guys I've dated, since they seem really nice and kind of crushed when I can't recall their name.
GOOD NEWS: I met someone with excellent taste in books. He is a few years older than me, so his library is much more impressive. I hope to benefit from his collection.
I really should be studying right now. Farewell.
5 comments:
I hear you on the music snobbery. I contain it pretty well, but I do tend to bore people with my constant musical ramblings. Also, I have a confession to make; I like Matchbox 20.
So as far as live music venues go, Provo is hit and miss (mostly miss). Occasionally UVU gets some sweet concerts, but mostly it's just local Utah bands, which you can find at Velour or Muse Music.
Salt Lake obviously gets better shows. The Depot, In The Venue, and Kilby Court got good bands this summer (especially Fleet Foxes, sooooo amazing). I wish I could say that I was more connected to the live scene here; I'm working on it.
i wasn't kidding when i said we could hang out.
..i know i know, i'm married, and don't have as extensive of a music collection, or fashion taste.. but i'm good at being friends. and i totally mean that. anyway, my door is always open. besides, andrew is doing homework a lot, which leaves me with LOTS of down time.
chow.
Ricky Gervais made that same joke at the Golden Globes the other day.
It's at the .55 second mark.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7RVHnNPDzMM
so i had a dream about you several nights ago. weird? yes, i agree. you weren't wearing leather pants, but you were definitely wearing hot pink snow pants. anyway, chris comes home next month so you should probably cruise on over and marry him. he'll need your help in the music department. i'm sorry our utah friends don't appreciate your ways. hopefully they'll come around.
It's hard to make your brain gain control of your mouth . I know tact is difficult to learn ( it took me forever) and you will feel like you are supressing your personality. Let's face it, you will be, but you can do it. Good luck and wardrobe wise, BYU could use some shaking up!
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