So, I'm kind of freaking out. I do not want Thanksgiving to happen. I am trying really hard to grasp the fibers of the reality around me and keep them EXACTLY RIGHT HERE. No more time passing.
Hard to explain. This will be the first Thanksgiving in 3 years that I actually spend with my family. I've missed out, and spent Thanksgiving alone, because of my own mistakes or pride or whatever it was.
This will be the first Thanksgiving with out my mom. I don't want it to happen, because I don't want to get used to it. I don't want to deal with reality. I want to have a super awesome fantasy land where time never passes in my brain.
Man I need to go to therapy LIKE WHOA.
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Get ready for your first everything without your mom. Each one will be tough but time heals all wounds. You will never forget your mother but as time goes on the holidays will loose their bitter-sweetness.
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