this morning: jamba juice 6 am to 2 pm
now I'm home till I get demon/stinky from day care! huzzah!
I was supposed to go to a family reunion this weekend, but I bailed to go to a three day festival with Jessica, who is comin up from San Diego (Its called the Oustide Lands Festival, for you music lovers out there). Now it turns out JESSICA bailed, too! Which I guess is ok cuz charlotte russe scheduled me for work this weekend and NO ONE will cover for me.
which is weak status. I'm about to quit that place, but I keep telling myself not to, that an extra shift every once in a while at a different job will really help out my financial status. Its true. I just need to keep my eyes on the prize.
The prize being school in January. BYU, here I come!
I'm still really not sure what to expect when I head back up to school. I need to start thinking about my classes and schedule and prepare myself for all the stress. Part of me is worried I'll have some sort of psychotic break, the other part of me just isn't thinking about it yet.
Am I going to see people I knew freshman year? Do I even want to see them? (answer: no. my best friends in the dorms completely abandoned/isolated me, and worse, when they found out I was bipolar. yeah, I'm still a little bitter about it)
How many credits should I take? I know I'll be working, too, I just don't know if I should ease into it or go all out?
Can I even afford this right now? its basically me and then any scholarships I have. I don't know anything about student loans.
Should I date? no. no i won't be dating. dating is hardly even an option for me right now. Plus I have nikki and a couple of really awesome missionaries that I'm writing to for my social stimulation.
Can I even rip myself away from this little family? this is the question that has bothered me the most. Not only am I going to miss them all ALOT, but I'm going to stay awake and worry. The dishes aren't EVER going to get done, Nikki will probably stop showering, aksldjfowiejf i can't even think about it. Thinking about January makes me want to call off my education so I can stick around and make sure no one is going crazy here in Lincoln ("no one" = nikki)
Rough. Blogging is a nice release. I recommend it. I also recommend the Berry topper from Jamba Juice. hmmmmm boy.
3 comments:
You are such and AWESOME sister! Nikki is super lucky to have you! She will be okay. We will be watching out for her. You are such a great sister for doing so much for her. I know she really has needed you this year. I think your great! :-)
Brooke you are seriously the cutest thing I've ever known! I freakin love you and your blog! I think my whole day would suck if you didn't blog! I seriously think that you are a riot! Sweet BYU! In Idaho, or Utah, or where? (hope its Rexburg!) but then I think to my self "why in the 'H' would anyone want to come to Rexburg to go to school?" Well, doesn't hurt to wish eh? Like I'm wishing some how Rexburg would all the sudden be cool so you'd come to school here, so I can see ya! LOL, Love ya Brooke...
i'm wishing byu utah would "all of a sudden be cool," too. thats where I'm headed, and I'm pretty sure its not the hotspot party college of the year. oh well though, its a place of learning and all that. Thanks for your comments girl! If I'm ever in rexburg (for a barn raising or ho-down or whatever they do there) I will call you up.
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