epiphany

I finally feel at peace with some intense feelings I've had about an old friend of mine. I was treated poorly by this person, have not seen or talked to her in a solid two years, but have still maintained nothing but hurt feelings and very real disdain.

I just randomly ran across her blog.

I was expecting to be filled with the usual discomfort (not liking her, feeling guilty for not liking her, feeling justified in my dislike, etc etc), but I was only met with sincere joy for the excellent choices she has made in her life. She is in a much better place than I ever would have thought. Her old ways of hurtful words and selfish actions seem to be behind her, and I'm just now feeling like I can let it go.

It is a big deal for me to feel this way, its a relief.


Do yourself a favor and forgive someone who was mean to you, even if they are oblivious to the hurt.

Do everyone else a favor and please do not gossip. Mormon girls have very sharp tongues, which sting their friends and end up slitting their own throats.

I'm sure heading back to BYU will be a painful reminder of that, especially since when Logan and I were there a couple of weeks ago I got some pointed stares, and actually heard the words "that is brooke schroeder" and saw fingers point. NOT JOKING. I was everywhere when I was at that school. At every party, flirting with every girls boyfriend, and acting crazy. I was thinking maybe my mania at the time gave me an inflated ego, but since I actually heard my name and saw different groups of girls pointing at me, I think its safe to say its not all in my head. People talk, and it sucks.

Please be nice to even the crazy ones. I promise you, you don't know the whole story.